More about myself, well before I started my hormone therapy I was paranoid of everything, would not venture outside without others, had anxiety all the time and panic attacks constantly. I slept almost non stop, had no energy, was extremely weak (couldn't bench press 40 lbs) was basically sick. Depressed and for the most part suicidal. I failed at every job I had and was diagnosed Obssesive Compulsive Schizoid Personality with a nerveous disorder. I was very thin ( about 150 lbs at 5ft 9 inches). I trusted no one and thought everyone was out to get me, on the same token I knew it was a stupid bizarre thought, I just did not know how to get help. It was not untill my collapse that I got hospitalized and in my old records my doctors discovered I was KS and not on hormons. 2 years ago, getting better every day.

Once I started taking the hormons my phobias and paranoia started to fade away, my energy increased, my anxiety and panic attacks stopped, I gained 30 lbs of mass, 10 lbs of fat and can press my own weight easily.

I have a long way to go with my cognitive therapy but so far so good. One thing I find is the hormons give a false sense of security, you feel like you don't need them anymore. At one point I stopped and it wasn't long before I had a full blown panic attack. I know I can never stop taking the shots, but what I need to know, is there a balance for the fluid retention. I've heard some take water pills and it sort of even things out. Anyone on water pills? Whats it like?

I am really interested in the amounts everyone takes, the brand and kind of testosterones. And side effects and how you cope.

Dagan